We are having some.. Disagreements about how open we want to be. I think a lot of us would like to be out completely, just not hide at all from anyone. We have several different social media accounts in which we blatantly say we have DID. Yesterday Ruari made a YouTube account for some of us to use like a video journal thing. If anyone we know (or knew) in person came across it they'd know immediately who we are. And then people might ask questions. And then we'd have to explain things to people-- which is easier to do with people we haven't known before. I mean, part of the reason we aren't on Facebook is because it's filled with people we went to highschool with and we don't feel comfortable being out. Not to mention our father, who we're sure is the source of our multiplicity (not that he ever did anything deliberately, I think, but he was just generally cranky and frightening and didn't like children that much. We were terrified of him, and so was our brother. I mean really truly terrified. I remember being afraid to move when he was in the room sometimes because we were never sure if he was going to yell at us.) I just don't know how we all feel about him coming to understand that he did this to us. Like.. We don't like him but he's our father and he's depressed and I'm not sure what that would do to him. Also he's still married to our mom and I don't want to make anything harder for her than it has to be.
But we're all so fucking tired of hiding. We're so tired of editing our language to say I instead of We. It's tiring. Anyway, there are already people who've noticed and just not been able to put their finger on exactly what our deal is. We're artists so we can sort of get away with being extra weird, but I'd like to not have to anymore. I dunno, this is just a point of stress for us. I know I'm rambling... But that's kind of what this blog is for.
We're gonna keep the social media accounts. Probably. It's good for us to have an outlet. With people.
Twitter: @we_are_sam
BBuzzArt: http://www.bbuzzart.com/profile/50502/works
YouTube: http://youtu.be/xRZw6eS2hRc
Li.st: @SamOwen
--Dante
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